Things never go right.

Came to know my GPA for the year quite some time back. I knew it a long time ago but i just haven't break it to my mum in fear of disappointing her. I know i know, studying is for myself but when your parents thought you'll do well but you ended up proving them wrong; that sucks.
I just don't want to wait till my mum ask for my results and then tell her. I want to break it to her on my own.

Well, it wasn't really THAT bad according to my friends or my sis whom i've told my GPA to.
I did improve but it wasn't a really huge improvement. But i gotta be contented that improving was better that remaining the same and way better than deproving (not sure if this word exists but you get what i mean)

Not sure if i've disclosed my previous sem's GPA here; i did improve this time round but sad to say, it was still under a 3. But i'm close to it. Guess by saying that, you could already have a rough gauge on my results.
I didn't let my mum know about my previous sem's GPA cos i wanted to pull it up to a 3 the next sem but seems like it was impossible.

Kind of sucks when you put in a lot of effort into something but you end up not getting your desired results.
My mum used to tell me (not flattering myself) "i can tell you are really hardworking but it's sad how your results doesn't prove it. Is it that your studying method is wrong or ?? I don't get it"
This was what she said in chinese so i just roughly translated it into english.
Well, i wished i knew where went wrong, so that i could change it and do better. But i've been trying and the method that i thought was the most effective doesn't seem to work when it comes to tests or exams.

I could remember back when i was in sec 3, i sat behind Wesley, one of my closest guy friend during secondary school and he told me "You know what you studied like when i ask you verbally on the chemistry formulas and definitions, you can tell me but when it's exam, you can't apply"
Sucks right.

But it's all fine. At the very least, i improved. Got to be happy about that. All the sad parts aside, i was very happy in fact, when i saw my grades though.
My AFA (Accounting for Assets) which i've been doing badly (almost failed) in class exercises and tests, got a B.

Another thing, my piano. I sort of neglected it while i was desperately trying to pull my GPA up. I neglected it to the point whereby i went to classes everyday, getting scolded by my piano teacher.
Well, i just had my Grade 7 piano exam today at 10.15am and all i'm going to say is that i'm prepared to get skinned alive by my dad.

Yeap 101% sure. Not even kidding. Even though i'm still holding onto that little hope that i might just pass but deep inside, i know how i performed.
But, no point crying over spilt milk. I've just gotta make good use of my 2-3 weeks before i get the results back cos that's when hell starts to break loose.

Things seriously never go right for me. Not even once. Can't even explain how fucked up my life is.

Till then, xx.

Soulmate

“I think the sign of a true soulmate isn’t someone you just want to do the super cool stuff with. A real soulmate is the person who makes any ordinary day fun. Some people make all these huge plans to do with their special someone, fuck that. Find someone who you can take grocery shopping and still have a blast with. Find someone who makes you look forward to waking up on Monday.” 

This doesn't mean anything but hey, i can't deny that i agree with that.

Till then, xx.

She'd be lying if she said she was.

 

Just a little thing it saw on twitter so i thought i should share it.

Updates : 

I've resumed my work already ! Hmmm not sure whether i should feel happy about it because i finally have something to do or i should feel sad because it means i won't be able to have time to catch up on my movies and shows. 

I've been watching quite a few movies lately (before i started my work, i meant) and i really enjoyed them. Partly because all i did was sit down on my chair and watch movies the whole day. Relaxing isn't it haha. 

Ended work hours ago and i'm surprised i can still stay awake till now because the moment i stepped into the train heading home, i told myself to get everything done as fast as i can and head to bed immediately after that. Seems like i've failed.

Kind of like being busy because it means that my day won't be wasted but i kind of hate it too because it tires me out. A lot.

Ugh my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier every minute.

Till then, xx.

40 things to keep in mind

1. If it was ‘meant to last’ it would have

2. You can’t put someone else’s happiness before yours and think you can call that a selfless form of love

3.If you can’t forgive someone for what they did, forgive yourself for trusting them

4. Sometimes you need to block their number. Even if it stings a little
 
5. Revenge is actually very selfish

6. If you don’t stop checking their social media, you’re never going to get over it

7. Venting is a necessity, but there comes a time when venting turns into dwelling and that does nothing but hurt you

9. DO NOT HARM YOURSELF

9. People will hurt you in ways you never thought imaginable, just remember this pain will not last
forever.

10. If your best friend doesn’t approve, he’s not the one
 
11. You have every right to cry until you can’t cry anymore when someone has hurt you

12. We all know what it feels like to be lied to—always tell the truth

13. Not everyone can be as caring and loving as you are

14. It doesn’t matter how much progress you’ve made as long as you don’t stop making it

15. Sleep isn’t a solution but it does give you a healthy escape

16. Having somebody hurt ‘half way’ hurts wore than not having them at all

17. Pretending like you don’t care doesn’t solve anything

18. MISSING THEM IS NATURAL

19, Being cruel to people just because you’re hurting doesn’t make it okay

20. How you react to the way someone treats you says more about your character than theirs

21. You don’t need anybody who doesn’t need you
 
22. It’s selfish to ask someone to stay when they want to leave

23. If you start to look up— this crazy thing happens and things actually start to get better

24. Keep your guard up but don’t push away the opportunities to be genuinely cared about

25. Stop wasting your time on people who don’t care about you

26. Stop hating yourself over something someone else did

27. Even if it doesn’t work out, it’s still an experience

28. Spend more time building better friendships

29. The only person you need to love is yourself

3o. Everyone deserves to be happy, even the people who hurt you the most

31. It always hits you hardest at night- push through

32. There are plenty of people who care about you, just because one person didn’t appreciate you doesn’t mean nobody will

33. There’s no better compliment than being called selfless

34. The people who are the first to be there for you are the ones who know what its like to have no one

35. If someone keeps denying the compliments you give them, they don’t hear them enough. Keep complimenting them

36. You can only trust a select few people, which you’ll figure out are the one’s you would never imagine having your back

37. Karma will do it’s job. Even if it takes so long you won’t be around to witness it

38. You can’t hold someone’s past against them, but at the same time be well aware of it

39. If you can’t accept someone in all their forms you can’t accept them at all

40. He does not fucking deserve me

Just something that i saw on tumblr and i thought i should share.
Till then, xx.

Sick

Hi you all !
So... i spent half of my first week of March being sick. Sucks isn't it ? But fortunately, with my mum's care and the doctor's medicines, i was fine after 3 days.

Well, i have Tonsillitis which is a condition whereby my tonsils are inflamed. It's kind of like a sore throat for those of you who don't have Tonsillitis. Just that this condition of mine gets pretty nasty for me.
When my tonsils starts getting inflamed, i'll always get fever somehow. And then flu and then cough. I don't know why, but that always happens. Other than these, i'll get headaches, ear pains, joint pains and loss of appetite. Loss of appetite is pretty normal when you're sick but having ear pains and joint pains ? Even i feel confused - how is having inflamed tonsils linked to ear and joint pains ? Hmm, beats me.

Another reason why i was sick was prolly because of the weather. The weather has been really dry lately. It hadn't rained for ages and i noticed that the soil were so dry that they cracked and the grass had withered and turned brown. It felt like a desert. 
Even with my aircon basting, i was still sweating under my blanket.
So yeah, maybe my body was "heaty".

The funny thing is, despite me being so sick, i was still pretty energetic. In the past when it occurred, i would stay in bed all day. Literally.  But during those 3 days, i wasn't like that. I could still play games, watch movies and videos. Prolly didn't want to waste my break in my bed, i guess.

So, all i did was sit on my chair in front of my desk and used my laptop. Kind of unhealthy though, because i was on my laptop the whole day. But i can't possibly go for a run (??) despite me being energetic. Pretty sure i would have collapsed under that scorching sun with a 38+ degrees fever then.  

Good thing is, i'm well now. Just coughing a little every now and then. 
Oh and i've just finished 2 movies that i've been wanting to watch but was unfortunately too slow to catch it before the cinema stops showing it. They are Maze Runners and Divergent. 
Love these 2 movies a lot and i can't wait for their sequels.

Update on my phone : It's still getting fixed sobs. Not sure when i can get it back but i hope soon !

Till then, xx.

Movie reviews

Watched quite a few movies and i thought i should give my reviews on them.

• Wedding Ringer

Watched this with Jeryn and Yangqin quite some time ago (i think) and i have to say that this show is pretty funny ! One of the reason's prolly that Kevin Hart is one of the casts in this movie but other that that, the plot of the show the pretty good too.
Had a really great laugh so i'll rate this a 4.5/5 !

• Paddington

Not really the type of movie i would normally select to watch but i bored so....
But this movie was rather good tho, partly because Paddington was super adorable.This show at some funny parts and a really touching ending so i'll give this a 4/5.

• Night at the museum : The secret of the tomb

Ever since i've watched the first Night At The Museum, it has been one of my favourite movies because the plot was really interesting and there were also some jokes in the movie which i found funny. So this third installment for the Night At The Museum, was the same too. Just that they had additional characters and a different story plot but still revolving around the magic tablet.
I'll rate this movie : 4/5.

• Z Storm

Watched this Hong Kong movie last year but i thought i should just include.
This movie is about financial fraud in Hong Kong but no worries, this movie isn't boring at all. Z Storm is a very classic Hong Kong crime flim with veteran actors whom had taken up similar roles before. And if you've been watching Hong Kong dramas, you'll be able to identify the 'good guys' and the ' bad guys'. Hehe Louis Koo's in it !
Z Storm also has a few action parts with all the shootings, car chasing and stuffs which i really liked so i'll rate this : 4.5/5

• Robocop

 

This show was enjoyable watching all the action-packed scenes and also some emotional ones. And i have to admit that the robocop was pretty cool with his suit and stuffs. Although there are a lot of movie reviews on this saying that Robocop is a bad remake, but since i haven't seen the previous version of robocop, i think this movie is pretty good. So i'll rate this : 3.5/5

• Big Hero 6

One of my favourite Disney movies, hands down.

Baymax's really cute and this show has some comedy parts to it. But this movie isn't all comedy: it does have a bit of an emotional side to it which i won't mention because it's going to be like a spoiler to those who haven't watch it yet.

Although the movie ending might be "Cliche"or "boring" to some people but i found none of these things in the movie at all. I was smiling right from the beginning of the movie and found myself a little teary-eyed towards the end. 

I'll give this a 4/5.

Till then, xx.

Brb crying X Updates

Nah, it's nothing big but sobs my phone died on me while i was using it 2 days ago. And i wasn't able to get it back on. So unfortunately all the pictures that i've edited for my blogposts weren't able to be recovered. Yes, i'm really sad.
I've been using my old phone as a spare. And ugh, the screen's really small when compared to my Note 2 but i can't complain because there's no other spare phones better than that.

But i'm going to get it fixed today and hopefully it would be able to function again. If not, i might have to re-edit the pictures again (which is a lot) and post them at a later time.

So right now, i'm having my end-of-year 1-break (not sure if that's how it's supposed to be called but i guess i'll just have to make do with this).
I haven't resumed working yet because my supervisor has yet to schedule me for this week. It'll only start next week. But the good thing is that i've got some time to rest and catchup on the shows that i've missed out while i was busying trying to pull my gpa up.

It feels really good to wake up and not be obliged to do anything (like tutorial and projects). Nowadays, all i do when i wake up is go back to sleep again, prolly for like an hour or so (really, i mean it).
And when i wake up, i'll just go over to my laptop (because my phone died and i had to use my old phone which has a really small screen) and start browsing the net, schedule some blog posts or look for shows to watch.

YAS THIS IS THE LIFE I'VE BEEN WANTING TO LIVE. But as a Singaporean student, this is very impossible as we, well, have school. By the time we come home from school, we are all half-dead and the other half of the 'alive' us is spent on homework and revision. But, it's okay, it is all for our own good. 

Till then, xx.

Malaysia trip : Fraser Hill x KL (photo blog)

Had a trip to Malaysia last year for Christmas on 25 december.

Fraser Hill
Looks like a little European town and the weather there's really really good tho. Really like the whole place but the bad thing is that, there is actually nothing much to do except eating and so we only stayed for 1 night before heading to KL.

KL
We stayed in KL for 2 days and all we did were, well, eating and shopping haha

This is me rocking my pokemon pjs lol and i just had a hair cut too !

 Our favourite Beef Noodles. Our must-eat when we are in KL

Till then, xx.