Came to know my GPA for the year quite some time back. I knew it a long time ago but i just haven't break it to my mum in fear of disappointing her. I know i know, studying is for myself but when your parents thought you'll do well but you ended up proving them wrong; that sucks.
I just don't want to wait till my mum ask for my results and then tell her. I want to break it to her on my own.
Well, it wasn't really THAT bad according to my friends or my sis whom i've told my GPA to.
I did improve but it wasn't a really huge improvement. But i gotta be contented that improving was better that remaining the same and way better than deproving (not sure if this word exists but you get what i mean)
Not sure if i've disclosed my previous sem's GPA here; i did improve this time round but sad to say, it was still under a 3. But i'm close to it. Guess by saying that, you could already have a rough gauge on my results.
I didn't let my mum know about my previous sem's GPA cos i wanted to pull it up to a 3 the next sem but seems like it was impossible.
Kind of sucks when you put in a lot of effort into something but you end up not getting your desired results.
My mum used to tell me (not flattering myself) "i can tell you are really hardworking but it's sad how your results doesn't prove it. Is it that your studying method is wrong or ?? I don't get it"
This was what she said in chinese so i just roughly translated it into english.
Well, i wished i knew where went wrong, so that i could change it and do better. But i've been trying and the method that i thought was the most effective doesn't seem to work when it comes to tests or exams.
I could remember back when i was in sec 3, i sat behind Wesley, one of my closest guy friend during secondary school and he told me "You know what you studied like when i ask you verbally on the chemistry formulas and definitions, you can tell me but when it's exam, you can't apply"
Sucks right.
But it's all fine. At the very least, i improved. Got to be happy about that. All the sad parts aside, i was very happy in fact, when i saw my grades though.
My AFA (Accounting for Assets) which i've been doing badly (almost failed) in class exercises and tests, got a B.
Another thing, my piano. I sort of neglected it while i was desperately trying to pull my GPA up. I neglected it to the point whereby i went to classes everyday, getting scolded by my piano teacher.
Well, i just had my Grade 7 piano exam today at 10.15am and all i'm going to say is that i'm prepared to get skinned alive by my dad.
But, no point crying over spilt milk. I've just gotta make good use of my 2-3 weeks before i get the results back cos that's when hell starts to break loose.
Things seriously never go right for me. Not even once. Can't even explain how fucked up my life is.
Till then, xx.
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